Sensitive, insecure, cynicism, pessimism, hotheaded ;
How many category you've hit among those I mentioned?
Be honest with yourselves, at least two of them describe a girl.

You can't change the fact that girl/ woman is sensitive, no matter how tiny that thing might be, when it comes to something she cares, she'll definitely becomes very sensitive.

In my case, friendship always get into my head. Truth to be told, being sensitive brings nothing else but problem. You might end up ruining something because you've over-think about it. Nonetheless, it is impossible to ask someone to stop being sensitive about something she cares. Stop lying to yourselves. Even if you didn't spill it out, your heart still struggle for the same thing. Complication of a human being.

They said; Never judge a book by its cover.
You'll never know that the one who seems to be happy and fooling around could be the one that suffers more than you do. Most of them tried their best to show themselves so that people can shower them with attention and love. Insecure feeling is way more harmful than you think it is.

Why am I here? 

Everyone has a valuable life, if you don't feel it now, you'll just have to wait for the right time. No one is born to be abandon.

Conquer your hard feelings, fight for your right. Don't be a coward. ;)

Labels: feelings, my thought, random

 Bonjour lecteurs!
Sorry for paralyzing my blog for quite some time. I'm just not in the mood to blog heh.
I guess I'll have to make an update anyway, so today I'm gonna talk about, uhhhhh yeah, CHICKEN CHOP.
I'm serious :* Well, I actually cooked chicken chop for my mom that day, of course with the help of my sisters ;) 
Which day? hehe Mother's day. *I know i know,  past tense.* 
And it's my first try, so yeah, worth blogging about it :3




We bought all the ingredients ourselves, including the ingredients for the popcorn chicken salad heh!
So yeah, we made a salad and a chicken chop with plain rice & vegetables.
Weird combination haha! That's because my elder sister insist of cooking some vegetables that's why our western food is so not western. :3 


Ingredients for chicken chop: Barbecue sauce, chicken , flour , egg 
Ingredients for salad: Cherry tomatoes , thousand island sauce, popcorn chicken, lettuce


Well, it's the most common stuff people would think of when it comes to these i guess.

Labels: barbecue sauce, chicken chop, handmade, lettuce, mother's day, popcorn chicken, salad, western food

 Haha, but c'mon, this is us. I actually love the way four of us communicate.

There's a reason why I called her my superwoman.
She's always there whenever I need her. No matter its regarding to something personal, or about my studies.
We share a lot of common thoughts, and I believe that we grew up in the same environment. (most likely)
That's why we build up our friendship so easily. She's a one true tacit partner of mine.
And when I say tacit, I meant it.
I really love how we can read through each other's mind without expressing it through words.
Okay, no more mumbo jumbo. Rachel Tan Hui Hsing, I'm gonna chop your head off if you weren't in the same class with me in Degree. * serious face *

 Nom nom nom, okay that was lame. He is just pretending to be normal because he knew I'm taking pictures.





And of course, how would I miss you out, Sherynn ;p
She's on the right side, if you can't recognize my babe YING I'm gonna kill you. Rawr
Don't mix them up okay.
Although we didn't really have much time to hangout together, that doesn't stop our friendship from growing.
I believe we will have much more chance during our Degree year. No worry! ;)

Then we have Madeline here.
Haha, well, I've slept with her twice ;3 Not joking okay. She shared her single bed with me when I decided to overnight at the hostel.

I am really grateful to have every each of you in my university life.
Thanks for making me feel more like, ME. ;)



 Awww, here comes the familiar face. Of course she was part of my foundation year. She was part of my life for 11 years already. * wink wink * Same primary school, same high school, same university. Holy mama. She's always there, haunting me. LAUGH OUT LOUD. Not that way la, just teasing you babe ;p
Well, her existence around always calms me down, even though I'm at a very new place, I won't feel alone.
Ahh, alright, I doesn't even have to describe how I feel about her. ;)



















You see, whenever you have time limit to do something, you'll build up a whole chain of reactions. Of course, stress always come first. Then, that stress influenced your motivation & your interest in doing the thing (which you suppose to be doing) . So, you'll end up doing something else, which is more fun than the thing. Basically I'm crapping over here, and you are reading it. HAH! It's obvious isn't it, I'm describing the exact situation I'm having here. 


I'm in the middle of preparing my presentation stuff, uhm yeah,so, tomorrow I have a presentation. Then, I got really bored, and I start tweeting. Then, I got this so call perfect idea that pop out of no where, which is blogging. Teheee, nice timing Nicole. :D 


Inadequate sleep, stress. Unhealthy lifestyle woo.


No choice. Am having final two weeks later. And before that, the schedule is tight.
A whole bunch of assignment & project's due dates are near. and yeah, labtest, presentation.
Whoaa, exciting isn't it?! Not.'




Back to the boring work. Bye!


Signing-out,
Nicole.L




 Your laughter, your smile, your annoying weird sound, your epic expression, your everything. Carved in my heart. Even if I wanna dig you out of my heart, you are too stable inside there. Aww, no choice, have to let you stay inside my heart forever.

I miss you already, five days left. ♥


Oh well, No, this is not a Valentine's post. I didn't celebrate.
Unless studying in the library can be count as celebration then yes, I did. 


I'm still having my finals, alright, just left one day, and it's killing me still.
I have a whole complete week to focus on Calculus. 
Basically, I either used up my time sleeping or talking and gossiping. Whatever.
I don't really care tho. I did study. ;) 


Counting down, left 10 days. 
Someone important in my life, is going to leave soon.
But its a good thing, go out and explore the world lady.
I do hope for the best for you, and you know I'll always do. 
There's too much to say, and it's hard to say it out loud either.
Oh well, I guess you feel the same way too. ;) That day, talking @ Oldtown, we somehow skipped the whole part, that part which we suppose to say how we are going to miss each other, and other stuff. Yeah, you said, don't make you cry for a hundred times already. Heh. ;) Just so you know, I never really go deep into the heart-to-heart talk because, I don't wanna admit that how unwillingly I am for you to go overseas. 
If we start talking , the whole memory lane will be exposed, and omg, I don't think both of us can take it. 
Anyway, save that part in our heart. May God bless you always. 


Don't scold me if you cried reading this post. I've tried my best to touch the least of that sentimental part. ;)
We love you, and will always be there when you need us, not physically of course. But in our heart. 







Last but not least, you know what you should do when you're there right,





SKYPE WITH ME 24-HOURS. haha kidding, but yes, you must! ♥


I love you, lylas. ♥





Just a short short post, nothing much.
We stopped talking about it. I guess we all just did.
Somehow I feel like there's nothing changed, she's still here with us.
That's why we didn't talk about it. Yeah, she's still here.

It's a zone where tears flow. So don't step in. Leave it there. Undisturbed.

-/ complication .

It's funny how you do nothing but people still get upset with you.
I'm tired with all these, and yeah, I'm not gonna bother anymore.
I have instant healing ability like the vampires. But mine takes place in my heart.
If you don't like me, then stay away from my life, my circle.
I'm not going anywhere.
I'm not born to please every each of you. So if you don't get along with me, move on.
My friends know how I treat them, I don't need any of your approval.
Kthxbai.




" Everything happens for a reason.
Sometimes people comes into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there.
They serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.When you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment, that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection, you realize that without overcoming those obstacles, you would never have realized your potential,  strength, will power of heart.


Everything happens for a reason.Nothing happen by chance or by means of good and bad luck.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of the soul. 
Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.


Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you never be able to experience it again. 


Have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in the struggle."

I thank God for everything.


Thanks babe Alvena & Ying for everything in the past hour. :)




We all knew this day would come, where we all have to accept the fact .
We've gone through something much more than this, we can go through this, again.
This will be the very first, hurtful memories, in 2012.

11 years, it's definitely not short, but precious one.
Seeing her suffer, heartache kills.
I never want a new one, no one can ever replace her.
I always knew that letting go is hard, but its harder than I thought.
Especially when we are the one to decide.

I still remember the first day when she came in, that very day our family had one more new member.
She's like our daughter, she is one of us.
I wish, we had more. More than this.
Every time when you are not feeling well, we know that you'll get better some day.
But this time, we know its different .

You are an angel, that's why you have to go back to the place you came from.
We, love you. This is why decision had to be made.
Quietly, appreciating what's left, before it happen.

















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